Damn, I'm so fuckin stressed out...
for about 2 weeks, I just haven't been able to sleep at night... this year just keeps replaying in my head and its driving me insane. I keep thinkin about a few people I met here, and what happened. There are many things that were said that I regret, but some of the people I met, I am truly proud to know them, despite what happened. But to me it seems that from certain things that I said, a friend of mine, well it seems they don't really even want to be my friend anymore... and also, there are many people that I know in my personal, and in DA that I just can't stop thinking about. I have this one friend, who suffers from a severe back injury, and her pain is just so bad that she can't even get online because of her pain... its just that all these people that I know that I really do care for, that I pray for, I just want them to be happy. And I wonder why they are alone, and unhappy. I wonder why some try to hide things, and why I feel unhappy. these people that I know, and any friend of mine, I trust you guys, I love knowing you, and I am willing to do anything for you all... its just that now, I'm wondering on what I'm willing to do for myself, and I also wonder if any of you guys feel the same...
needles to say, I am a bit depressed... and at this moment, I don't really feel much like talking... so I may not be online for a while.